I'm Not Ready

I always told myself that I would breast feed for 6 months and then assess the situation and go from there. I'm not sure where I came up with this number. I must have pulled it out of the air. Well, Hadley turns 6 months old in 7 days and even though my milk has substantially subsided, I am really not ready to be done. Yes it would be easier for me to stop because I could finally go on a diet, stop pumping every couple of hours, and take my body back. But emotionally, I'm not ready to give up our bond. When I feed her, and nourish her from my own body, and she stares up at me, it's like nothing I have ever felt. I don't mind getting up in the middle of the night to be with her because it is our special time together.

Ok, and there's one other thing, and it's kind of selfish. It's my one trick in the bag that no one else has. If she's over tired and having trouble getting to sleep, pop a boob in her mouth. If she's fussy and nothing seems to be working, pop a boob in her mouth. It's like magic calming juice. If I don't have the magic juice, I'm afraid I'll just be that old broad in the corner with her shirt pulled up.

Actual Conversation

As I was standing in the shower with my milky jugs engorged:

Me: (yelling) Is that Hadley crying?

DG: No.

Me: Oh, what is that?

DG: I was singing.

I proceeded to laugh so hard that I was afraid of popping a stitch.

Showing your Boobies in Public

While we were out a few week-ends ago, we noticed signs for a nurse-in, as a protest for a woman being harrassed at a local amusement park for nursing her baby in public. As we passed by, I joked that there were 7 women and 40 men there in support. *giggle* You can read the full article here.

It is completely legal in the US for women to breast feed in public, though each state has their own rules on the books. What I find to be the worst part of this story is that when she recited her rights to the police, it was like they were hearing this law for the first time. They did not enforce the law at all, rather they continued to threaten to kick the woman out if she did it again.

This all brings me back to my own boobies and how they are growing during the pregnancy. Yet another disappointment in life, as I always thought my crowning glory would be the day I would fill an Double D cup bra when I was pregnant. Ok, maybe I also thought that I would grow breasts that look like a porn star. That even with my big belly, Hugh Hefner would finally come calling for me to do a cover shoot with my hot new boobs. Well, unfortunately those boobs only come on the plastic surgery tree and I am left wondering what all the fuss is about. I'm also left trying to figure out why DG never looks me in the eye anymore?